Thursday, 1 September 2016

Drifting away

Whenever I look and reflect on the progress. It looks like it's still the same. Sometimes I really feel like I want to quit. Sometimes I really want to hang on this no matter what. I'm tired, I hope to see an end into this soon. 4 more months to go till year end. But I plan to end this in 3 months time, before I fly off to Japan for 3 weeks in December. Right now, it sounds like a 3 weeks trip to recover and find myself once again. Or maybe it will be a great wonderful trip which I can share my moments with her.

8 full months have passed. 1st of September today.

I must be hell of a strong fool and idiot to last this long.

Or maybe it's true that good things come to those who wait and have patience.

Sometimes you make me feel like I'm the only one for you in your life but sometimes I feel like I'm the stupidest guy on earth. 

Such is life.

Wednesday, 27 July 2016

Last dice?

After so long. After all that had happened. The answer is still the same, firm as ever. How many last dice do I have to throw?

Wednesday, 6 July 2016

So how now?

It's July now. 6 months had passed. 6 months since the eve of new year 2016. And more than a month since that night which gave me higher chances. Well higher chances it seems but everything still look and feel the same. Is there any progress? Sometimes I feel yes but sometimes no. I wonder what or how will it be 6 months down the road.

Tuesday, 10 May 2016


All back to square one. In it all over again. Maybe better this time? Let's hope so.

Monday, 2 May 2016

The answer

Deciding week it was.

Now is how I can walk away, make my heart cold and be a man without feelings.

It has been raining everyday for me. I'm tired.

Guess maybe I deserved better.